Sunday, July 27, 2014

He's Gone and I'm Mad At God!

In recent months, so many loved ones have passed away.  Not only my friends and family but the loved ones of those I know.  It's heart breaking to hear of another friend that's lost someone near and dear to their hearts.  Until you've lost someone close (especially a parent), you can never understand the grief that one feels during that season of life.  Unfortunately I've lost a parent and it's a "club" I never wanted to join.

I was always a daddy's girl.  My dad was my hero.  When he became ill, it rocked my world.  I had to move from believing God was a healer to knowing without a shadow of a doubt that He was my father's healer.  God showed His awesome power, time and time again during dad's health challenges.  That's why when he passed away, it was devastating.

I was mad at God.

We prayed, we believed, we fasted and he passed away.  Even though God  worked miracles in dad's body in the past, right now, he was gone and my world was turned upside down.  As soon as we started sharing with others that dad died, people from all around called and provided words of encouragement.  I was so mad, those words didn't really encourage.  It wasn't their dad gone.  They weren't feeling my grief so I really didn't want to hear what they had to say.  I know that sounds harsh but it was the raw emotion of the moment.

I was still mad at God.

My journal excerpt:

"As we entered the church, I saw all of the people and became overwhelmed.  I didn't know how to handle it.  I felt myself beginning to cry and hyperventilate.  I tried to breath in and out deeply to prevent myself from falling out.  As we drew closer to the casket, my eyes were cloudy from the tears.  I couldn't believe that I had to sit on the front row.  I'd seen this image so many times before but this time it was my reality.  My heart was saddened.  I felt empty.  Family members passed by and I still could not see out of my eyes.  I put my head in my hands because of the intense grief I felt at that time. 
The service progressed and suddenly my soul just became happy when the choir sang.  I had made the first step toward accepting my father's death and coming to peace with it."

I would still have some long days and nights moving through the grieving process.  The key was to move through it.  Not remain stuck.  Months after his death, I shared my disappointment and hurt with a family friend.  The words she shared in response changed my life forever.  She quickly reminded me that God provided divine healing for daddy.  When we pray for healing, we must always remember that God is sovereign.  We can't dictate to Him how or when he will manifest the healing in our loved ones lives.  Whether it's physical or divine healing, God is still the one healing.  Remember, God is always able to heal.  More importantly, He's also willing.  (Posted by Renee)


Psalms 23:4
 "Yes, even if I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will not be afraid of anything, because You are with me. You have a walking stick with which to guide and one with which to help. These comfort me."

Lamentations 3:31-33
“For no one is cast off by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. For he does not willingly bring affliction or grief to anyone.”

Psalm 30:5
“For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.”

Psalm 34:18
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

Psalm 22:24
“For he has not despised or scorned the suffering of the afflicted one; he has not hidden his face from him but has listened to his cry for help.”

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Keep Calm & Don't Lose Your Head

These words speak to me.  Lately, I have felt a bit depleted when it comes to my inspiration for others.  When you deal with your own twists and turns in your life, you don't always have an inspiring word to encourage someone else.  That's why I try not to live based on my emotions or feelings.  Those twins - emotions and feelings - can lead me down a wrong track.

I encourage you this week to just keep calm and handle the ups and downs with grace.  You are not alone in this journey of life.  Changing your perspective and focusing on only what is helps keep you calm.  Don't overthink or overanalyze every situation, women do this easily.  Have a support system that listens and doesn't always try to judge and solve your problems.

My stress has caused break outs on my face.  A recent dentist appointment revealed that I'm also grinding my teeth at night...not pretty.  Stress can evoke several harmful reactions within our body, so just KEEP CALM.  Be inspired this week to breath and operate from a place of peace (Posted by Roslyn)

Don't fret or worry.  Instead of worrying, pray... Philippians 4:6
Roslyn chooses to SMILE!

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Monday Inspiration...BELIEVE

It's Monday!  The Summer is moving quickly and back to school supplies are already appearing in stores.  Before we know it, Christmas will be here and we will be ringing in a new year.

As time moves and doesn't allow us to "get off" and catch up with it, we must remain focused on intentional actions.  Not just mundane but an intentional plan to have a greater impact in the world around us.

When was the last time you told someone that you BELIEVE in them?  You believe in their dreams, abilities and have confidence in who they are as a person.  We've all heard negative words spoken over us.  Growing up, children at school called you names.  Employers dumb down your abilities to a performance score or rating.  You even start to agree with the negative label that might have been placed on you during childhood.  You wear that label, positive or negative, as a banner or badge of honor.

Truth Moment:  It's never about what you are called, it's all about what you answer to!

Let's start a revolution to intentionally become people builders.  That means, using our words intentionally to build up, lift and encourage another person in our life.  We have the greatest impact on our family - so we can start with them.  Find positive words to let them know you BELIEVE in them.  

Believe in others more than they believe in themselves.  Be fueled by the passion of where they are going and not the circumstance they are in today.

Let's do it - full of belief in someone other than ourselves.  We will shift from being internally focused to being focused on the needs of others. (Posted by Roslyn)

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Summer Confessions

I have to blog twice this week.  Once for Double Portion Inspiration and again on Friday for GFC Beautiful Blog.  I thought having a similar theme for both blogs would make writing a little easier.  I thought about the title the other day while driving in the car.  A post that's fun and reflective.  There's no rhyme or reason to my confessions.  Just some "summer" fun.

  • I've never shopped at Big Lots
    • As much as I love a deal, I've never even been tempted to shop there.  The other day I wondered if I should go inside.  I don't even know if it's a grocery store vs. clothing store vs. Walmart wanna be.  If you think I should venture inside, let me know.

  • I feel guilty giving my daughter chores 
    • Not sure why??  I'm sure I'm not the only mother who feels this way.  I've come to realize that I need to have the kids help out around the house because it's through their responsibilities that they will learn how to manage their own homes when the time comes.

  • I was a thumb sucker (even into adulthood)
    • I'm often told I have a beautiful smile.  Most wouldn't know that that I sucked my thumb well into my adult years.  Fortunately I'm blessed with my mother's smile because I've never had braces.

  • I love the "Sound of Music"
    • I watch it every time it comes on television.  It's a beautiful love story.

  • I've never watched "Roots"
    • Yes, I'm a Black woman whose never seen the movie. I've seen it in bits and pieces but some parts of it are so hard to watch that I choose not to watch it in its entirety. The same holds true for "12 Years A Slave".

  • I don't like being alone
    • Some enjoy the peace of quiet of their own space but I don't.  I've always had someone with me and so it's my norm.  Don't get me wrong, I like some "me" time every now and then, but at my core, I love people and the sound and thrills that being in relationship with others can bring.

Well, that's my Monday morning inspiration.  Nothing earth shattering or life changing.  Just a few things you might not know about me.  (Posted by Renee)